At first you deny, deny, deny! Or at least, that's what I do. "That's just a normal twinge, it'll go away as soon as I loosen up some more." "Everything hurts at some point, no need to be concerned yet." "So I have to modify my stride a little bit, that never killed anyone." "Once I get to mile 3 this sharp pain will start to dull, I just have to push through until it gives in to my will power." These are all thoughts that crossed through my mind last week as I pushed through a strange pain in my upper left quad.
In the mean time, I was flooded with a series of emotions and thoughts. I'm not sure that I can even separate them all into distinct episodes. It has been a mix of despair, anxiety, depression, panic and anger all rolled into one hot mess. The most distinct is anxiety and depression. These feelings seems to not be limited to running related thoughts. My entire life seems to be out of control. And while I have moved on to the next stages, the anxiety hasn't seemed to lessen in intensity.
Once I navigated this identity crisis, I began to fight back. I tapped my inner athlete to focus on my physical therapy exercises, strengthening my core and arms, as well as any sort of cardio cross training my leg can handle. My new found determination has me hopeful that I will be back to new in no time. Maybe by Sunday for Nike Women's? (The decision on this will come tomorrow, when I need to cancel the hotel if we are going to get out of the reservation penalty free).
Google "coping with a running injury," and you'll get various different versions of the mental coping stages one goes through. For me, it has been:
- Identity Crisis
- Fighting back/Determination
What sort of mental process do you go through when faced with adversity?